The Willingness to Change Leads to truth

Going through a spiritual ascension can be a rather difficult period in one’s life.  The individual’s beliefs start to change.  All of the friends a person had seem to drop off the planet for no reason.  The individual cannot seem to figure out the next step to take in his or her life.  Cold symptoms as well as hot flashes start appearing on a regular basis.  The sicknesses never escalate into anything serious. 

I started going through a spiritual ascension around two weeks ago.  The symptoms I was feeling mimicked the dental issues that I had back in the winter of 2016.  I thought some more teeth were infected in my mouth.  The right side of my face hurt quite a lot.  This issue calmed down six days later.  I then started feel small burning sensation in my legs, feet, and lower back.  The back of my head also felt like this as well.  They feel like hot poker burns.  This type of inflammation feels hot temperature wise.  The inflammation comes and goes spontaneously. 

I have been going through some serious fatigue.  I do not feel like doing anything a lot of the time.  Going to the bathroom has also changed as well.  My body tends to want to release fecal matter a little at time in chunks that are less solid than usual.  My body also does not feel as heavy even after eating foods such as lasagna or pizza. 

All of the symptoms are probably just indicators of something much bigger that will happen to me.  I am not talking about moving from one place to another or getting a new job.  Something else will happen that will tie everything together.  Whether this is something big in itself or something small that will be used to propel me forward to where I am supposed to go.  The solution to all of my issues is not going to be something easy.  I am going to have to take a huge leap if I want live my life my way.  No one else is going to be able to help me do it.  Most people do not bother taking their own power back.  I am trying to break free from the “daily grind” and live a life worth living.  I can only rely on myself to reach this goal.  There might be others here and there that might help me do specific things, but the rest is up to me. 

A spiritual ascension will push individual to his or limits.  It is going to strip away everything that is false about the individual with only the core exposed.  A spiritual ascension is where one’s authentic self truly starts to come into its own.  An individual can try to go back to what he or she did before, but it will not last.  The old way of living will collapse in on itself and take the person along with it.  One can either choose to follow his or her heart willingly, or the universe will use circumstances to force the individual to change.  Everyone has the will to decide to live up to their own truth or choose to hide away for the rest of their lives.  I am trying to change willingly.  I still have my bad habits, but I am still trying to push forward anyway.  I look forward to making the most of this energetic change that I am going through.  The changes that a spiritual ascension brings do seem scary from time to time, but they are most likely necessarily for an individual to achieve his or her desired goal.   

Changing One's Perception Through Dream Analysis

Dreams can be quite a mystery when it comes to interpreting them.  Each person dreams every night during sleep.  Most view dreams as nothing more than a fantasy world that one goes to at night.  This philosophy could not be further from the truth.  Understanding one’s dreams can give a person more insight into him or herself than he or she ever imagined.  The representations within the dream world might give information about where one should go in life. 

The first step to understanding one’s dreams is to keep a dream diary.  The dreamer needs to write in the diary every day right after he or she wakes up in the morning.  The more time one wastes before writing the dream down, the less he or she will remember about what events took place while asleep.  Dream image retention will increase the more dreams are written down.  Dreams will become more vivid the more one pays attention to them.  The dreamer might feel as if he or she is traveling through time.  There will be a feeling as if an individual has been somewhere during the night upon waking.  An individual might remember what was said in a dream or at least remember that someone was speaking in what seemed to be a foreign language. 

The second step to remembering dreams is applying knowledge when attempting to interpret dreams.   This can be a little more difficult than it seems.  Dream books or websites can help the dreamer in some cases, but the majority of the representations in dreams can only be deciphered by the one having them.  In other words, an individual has to apply what they already know about him or herself to get the most out of the dream representations.  For example, I recently had a dream about moving to the countryside with a friend.  This friend then got angry because I went to a video game store.  For whatever reason, my brother and father were at the store as well.  I picked up Mortal Kombat Trilogy on the original PlayStation.  The game was in one of those double CD cases.  The front of the case had a deep crack in it, but the spine was still intact.  I also picked up some collection that contained Resident Evil 4, 5, and 6 on it.  I realize that I forgot my money, so I asked my father to pay for everything.  The interpretation of the dream is mirroring what is happening in my waking life.  I am trying to move out of a house that I have been living in for thirty one years.  I am also trying to look for opportunities beyond the call center job that I had for three years.  Old memories and thought patterns still pop in my head from time to time.  I used to play video games a lot when I was younger.  I was known as the expert at Mortal Kombat in my circle of friends.  The games that I purchased represent old memories or baggage that I have been hanging onto for a while.  The games on the shelves represent different thoughts and memories.  The double CD case could represent a stronger memory from my past than the Resident Evil collection.  The deep crack in the case probably indicates the age of the memory.  The Mortal Kombat franchise has always resonated with me since I was eight years old.  I also was not financially independent at a younger age.  My father paid for everything.  The themes of this dream as a whole are new opportunities and old beliefs.  I am trying to rid myself of the old in order to make room for the new.

Dream interpretation in a nutshell is repetition combined with applied knowledge.  One needs to keep writing out his or her dreams in order to become a good interpreter.  The dreamer needs to understand him or herself beyond a surface level in order to potentially understand the representations within dreams.  Once one has put forth a good amount of effort in following the steps to interpreting dreams, then his or her life will most likely get better as a result.  The dreamer will be able to find out things about him or herself that he or she never considered previously.  This change in one’s perception will eventually put the individual on the correct life path.        

Developing Intuition

Intuition can be a rather difficult subject to approach.  The word means different things depending upon the context in which the word is used.  During the Modern period, the philosopher Kant used the word to mean perception of the physical world.  During the present time, intuition means how natural something feels.  If the control layout in a particular video game is not similar to all the other titles in a given genre, then people complain that the controls are not intuitive.  Intuition can also indicate that person picks up on subtleties in his or her environment.  The word is sometimes used when the topic of mysticism is brought up.  Someone can have a knowing that goes beyond the physical senses.  Based on a recent experience I have come to the conclusion that Intuition can also include blind knowledge that an individual has no clue about whatsoever.   

I went to a local pizza place called J and P Pizza.  I sat down at a booth across from where I normally sit.  There was a group of about seven people or so.  After consuming my usual order of one medium cheese pizza and a cherry coke, I accidentally hit the alarm button on my phone.  This option gave me the time of a few different countries.  I decided it would be fun to find the time difference between the United States and Australia.  There was a fifteen and a half hour time difference between the two places.  Thirty seconds after I found the time difference, I hear one of the men in the group say something about Australia.  I am not sure what the details were, but that seemed rather odd.  My thoughts then drifted to what I needed to get done before the day was over.  I also thought about why I seemed to know the time even without looking at a clock too often.  A minute after I began thinking about these ideas, I hear one of the women in the group talk about her daily morning and evening routines. 

About ten minutes later, a couple sits down in a booth that is close to mine.  My mind starts to drift to the financial situation that is happening in my life at the present moment.  The couple then starts talking about betting money on football teams.  Thoughts about health insurance pop into my head.  I was wondering if changing carriers would be an option so early in the year.  The couple in the booth then starts talking about doctor appointments and coughing quite a lot.  The woman also spoke about going to a funeral recently.  These people kept going on and on about sickness.  I began to feel depressed about my life.  I do not why my thoughts turned negative.  I can only assume that I picked up some of the negative energy from the couple in the booth.

One might argue that all of these events are just my subconscious honing in on things that are of value to me.  This is not the case at all.  Australia has no meaning in my life at all.  I am sure that it is a fine continent, but I do not have any relationship with it.  I do not worry about doctor appointments or getting sick too often.  I do not worry about financial matters every day of my life.  There would be no reason for my subconscious to pick any of these things out through the conversations of other people. 

The only other explanation is that I have an underdeveloped sixth sense.  Everyone has the capability of enhancing themselves in this manner.  What form the sixth sense takes all depends on what the individual values the most.  The mind is most valuable thing that I have.  Since I hold this belief, it is no wonder that my sixth sense came out as mental energy.  If I could figure out a way to develop my sixth sense further, maybe I could this ability to help others.  I do not know the exact form my sixth sense would take. 

One thing that I can state for certain is that I have never experienced anything like this before in all of my life.  I know myself pretty well. I have never been one to stretch the truth by any means.  I was never a person with a heavy interest in the occult until about ten months ago.  I would know whether or not my experiences were just a product of my imagination.  My intuition is real, and I will learn to trust what it tells me one day.  Once I am able to master this skill, then I will able to assist others that have fallen on hard times.           

Developing Faith in the Universe

Having faith that everything will work out in life is a very difficult thing to accomplish.  No one can ever tell what is going to happen one hundred percent of the time.  All anyone can do is use his or her best judgment regarding each situation and hope everything falls into place.  The universe helps people obtain what they truly desire even if they cannot see it quite yet. 

Earlier this year, I was under a lot of pressure from my job and my father.  I worked about forty eight to fifty five hours a week doing call center work.  My father’s health had been declining rapidly since the end of last year.  He always wanted me to take care of him in some way shape or form.  The only problem with my father is that he gave up on himself and would not try to improve his health one bit.  I became so overwhelmed that a few teeth were pulled out of my mouth because they were rotten.  I stopped eating healthy during the month of June because I was too tired to make myself something to eat after I got home from work every day.  Both of my stress inducers stopped being an issue once my father went to the hospital and eventually passed away. 

My world changed the instant my father’s death occurred.  I was completely independent.  I no longer had anyone telling what I should be doing or how it should be done.  I no longer had to meet any type of quota regarding arbitrary numbers that fluctuate day in and day out.  I felt what it was like to be truly free for the first time in my life. 

Now I am facing housing and monetary difficulties.  I tend to worry more than I should about the whole ordeal, but I am learning to have faith that everything will work out at the proper time.  I am taking the steps necessary to keep my mind in the present moment while only planning a few days in advance.  This helps ensure that I do not entertain negative thoughts about a future that probably will not come to fruition. 

I have learned to pay attention to the minor events taking place on a daily basis.  I had an appointment to see an apartment a week ago.  When I got out a car, I saw that the handicap ramped was blocked.  I had to walk about fifteen feet at the other end of the sidewalk to find another ramp.  I went up to the entrance of the leasing office and saw that it did not have a railing by the steps.  I tried entering the building through the maintenance department, but the office was closed.  Some other person pulled up to the side of the curb and starting yelling to someone else inside of the leasing office.  With all of these minor events taking place, I figured that this particular apartment complex would not suit my needs.  I called an Uber driver and left the premises. 

The death of my father as well as my trip to the apartment complex helped me develop faith in the universe.  I have to believe that everything will work out for the best even if I cannot see what the final outcome will be.  I have to give myself credit for creating the reality that I want to experience.  As long as I keep living authentically, then I can have faith that things will work out in my favor. 

The Infinite Power Within the Mind

The mind can be quite a tricky thing to master.  After all, no one’s mind works in the exact same way.  We all have different ways of processing information.  The way my mind works seems to be pretty rare and unique.

I have the ability to switch between the conscious and unconscious modes of my mind.  I cannot perform this task manually by any means.  My mind just knows when it is acceptable for certain modes of itself to come into play.  Because I have Cerebral Palsy, I have to hold onto objects to help me move around from place to place.  During this activity, my conscious mind is extremely present.  It needs to make sure that I do not hurt myself while I am in motion.  When I am in a more stationary position such as sitting, the unconscious mode of my mind becomes a lot more active.  Sometimes the images in my head are so vivid that I begin to talk out loud as if what I am seeing is right before me material wise.  When I am sitting at tables in restaurants, I talk out loud without realizing it.  The server then thinks that I am talking to him or her.  It is rather humorous when this takes place.  I will also begin to laugh for what seems to be no reason at all.  The truth is that there is a reason for my laughter.  The unconscious mode of my mind is going full blast creating image after image.  Since the images are extremely vivid, they seem almost like they are present in physical reality.  A lot of the time, my wicked or vulgar sense of humor makes me think of things that are just plain ridiculous.  I am surprised no one gives me any funny looks. 

The only time the conscious mode of my mind becomes more active while sitting is when something negative happens to me.  This might include, my order getting mixed up at a restaurant, a ride being cancelled, and so forth.  The unconscious mode of my mind quickly disappears leaving the conscious mode to deal with what has just transpired. 

Both modes of my mind have their place within me.  Both modes understand how to work together, and that is why my mind as a whole is my strongest asset.  The mind has the ability to create anything it wants, and it also has the ability to give an individual the ideas on how to bring something into existence from a material perspective.  Any person has to power to change his or her physical reality.  All he or she needs is a vision of some sort, and a plan for how to materialize it.     

Evolution of My Spiritual Journey

It has been almost nine months since I became aware of my spiritual awakening.  As stated in my previous post, I suffered a few bouts of sleep paralysis back in April.  I was visited by what seemed to be an evil spirit.  It told me to stop studying astrology.  This incident is what truly kick started my spiritual journey.  At this point in time, I did not understand how deep the rabbit hole went. 

During May of this year, I started to meditate quite regularly using traditional methods.  This helped me heal my body quite a bit.  I did not suffer small stress related illnesses like I used to before I started this practice.  I began to have lucid dreams to varying degrees.  I was scared as all hell the first time one of these occurred.  Eventually I got used to them over time.

Going to my job in the call center every day became rather tough.  I began to have this feeling inside that I was meant for something more.  I felt a strong need to understand myself and the universe on a deeper level.  I could not do things by the “numbers” anymore.  I did not interact an authentic way with most of the people I spoke to throughout the day anyway, so I felt like I was not doing much of anything. 

In August of this year, I started to feel some kind of strange energy in my hands.  The feeling was somewhat similar to becoming numb only with a less intense sensation.  In other words the physical sensation is not as heavy as a body that has gone asleep due to awkward positioning.  This feeling had a faster flow.  I came to understand this feeling as my energy signal.  The energy within me tends to get more intense when put my hands together to make orbs to absorb negative energy. 

My hearing also has sharpened over time.  I can hear the cat outside from halfway across the house.  I can hear a high pitched ringing in my ears twenty four hours of everyday.  When a room is completely silent, I can hear the ringing without any issues at all.  This is not because my ears were ruined by listening to loud music.  Ringing in one’s ear due to music is a sign that an individual went passed the sound threshold that he or she could handle.  The ringing in my case is most likely due to an increased sense of perception.  In other words, my ears can now pick up frequencies beyond the average hearing range.      

I hope that my spiritual awareness continues to grow in the future.  Maybe I will be able to use these traits to help people one day.  For now I will just have to wait and see what happens. 

My Sleep Paralysis Experience

The spirit realm is something that remains a mystery to many people.  Everyone has always heard about a world that exists beyond the physical plane, but not many have a strong enough interest in the subject matter to discover whether or not it is possible to cross the lines between these two worlds.

Through no fault of my own, I have developed quite a strong case of sleep paralysis.  This has been going on for the past two weeks.  I woke up, but I was in the dream world somehow.  I felt this presence in the room with me.  A spirit spoke to me, and it said to  stop trying to interfere with matters that do not exist within the physical realm.  The spirit told me to stop looking into astrology.  I do not really understand why an evil being would be so intimidated by someone who barely understands the spiritual world.  I can only assume it is because evil spirits similar to the one that I encountered like to cause trouble. If someone with a good heart becomes more aware of herself, then that might weaken the power a spirit wishing to engage in evil acts. 

The other few times that I have had sleep paralysis were nothing special.  I felt something grab my hands.  It was not evil by any stretch of the imagination.  The spirit did not say anything whatsoever.  After I woke up, I went about my day like any other human being.

Another time I was dreaming I was out in the hallway of my own house, then I went back into my room.  I woke up from the dream and could not move.  Everything looked to be quite normal.  Then I saw black dots scattered everywhere on my bed moving quite quickly.

Most people do not have sleep paralysis as often as I have had it in recent weeks.  I have no idea why I have had episodes so frequently, but I am sure I will figure out what has been happening to me someday. 

This is going to be a journal of my experiences relating to the spirit realm.  Hopefully I will have more interactions beyond my physical limitations in the future.  I want to learn more about the spirit realm and about making contact with other beings that are out there.