tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74662298650270874032024-02-20T15:43:39.968-08:00Window to The Spirit RealmThe lessons I have learned from incorporating spiritualism into everyday life. Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.comBlogger71125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-64055208626202615372018-11-27T12:49:00.000-08:002018-11-27T12:51:28.687-08:00Does Hard Work Always Pay Off?As the saying goes "hard work always pays off." Modern society has this notion that if you suffer through something long enough, then the golden nugget will eventually choose you worthy of having all that you desire. Here is a question for this philosophy. If hard work pays off, then why aren't more people happy? Even after the "desired" result achieved, people are still not content and want more. The answer to this question is not easily found.<br />
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The thing that people miss in achieving what they want is that they believe that their pain will be relieved once the specific result has come to pass. When people do not feel satisfied with getting the thing they wanted, a common statement from others is "you are never happy with anything." "Maybe it is not what you really wanted." Is this really the case? From my experience, neither one of these are true. No one is angry about not getting that promotion or that the beach property they moved to is not as good as it seemed when they planned everything out. People are mad because their internal pain still exists even after they put in "all that work" regardless of the result. What people are angry about is that they did not find a more enjoyable way to achieve their goals. Enjoyment or fun is doing something for the sake in itself and not for a means to an end. In other words, most if not all causes of anger all boils down to not knowing how to achieve goals by taking actions done for the sake of themselves and not as a means to an end. Happiness is doing something for the sake in itself and anger is doing something for a means to an end.<br />
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Most people live a means to an end lifestyle. We all went to college in order for the promise of a better job. Then when people get out of college, they complain about the job they have. They keep thinking that "someday," my hard work will pay off, and I will live "the life." The work is done and "the life" finally becomes a reality, but the person is still unhappy. He or she is mad because the end result did not relieve his or her pain from all the "work" that was completed. One would argue that the individual's expectations were too high and that the pain would not have been so great if he or she just expected less. Expecting less just means that you anticipate disappointment before even setting out for the goal that is trying to be reached. Disappointment is just a lesser degree of anger. The person is saying that he or she will not like any process used to achieve the goal.<br />
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Everything comes back to process and self worth. People always say that something is not worth the "effort," "time," "work," or "aggravation." Here is the issue with this statement. It puts the worth on something else other than yourself. In other words, it is like saying "I do not value myself enough to find a process that I can do for the sake of itself in order to achieve my goals."<br />
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Enjoyment of the process is what brings happiness to most if not all people. When people reach goals by doing thing for the sake in of themselves and not for a means to an end, then not achieving the goal by a specific time is not met with anger. The journey we take to the end goal is more important than the end goal itself. This last line is a bit cliche, but it is true. The process matters more because when choose the process of how we obtain our goals, we are putting the value back on ourselves and not on something else.Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-6401073152333072192018-05-14T15:23:00.000-07:002018-05-14T15:23:43.315-07:00The Truth About Job Security<br />
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Career and financial securities are probably a top priority
for a lot of people.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everyone wants to
know that they will be taken care of all the time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The old saying goes, “you might be ok with
your job, but is your job ok with you?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Everyone has heard this in one form or another at some point in his or
her life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In could not be further from
the truth.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I recently had a position at Toyota Financial Services.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was a customer representative for the lease
end department.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I spoke to people about
their excessive wear and use bills along with disposition fees.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have worked in call centers before, so the
complaints about how much things cost were nothing new to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My supervisor stated that he needed to do
some side by sides with me so he could get a better picture of how I handle
customers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It took him two weeks to sit
down with me during four phone calls to make sure I was doing everything
right.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had already been taking calls
for a month before this transpired.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This
was one of the telltale signs that told me the job I was doing was not the
right one for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would sometimes
stare out the window and look at the shining its bright light on everything in
sight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would think to myself,
“wouldn’t it be awesome if I could be out in the sun right now instead taking
calls from customers that ultimately do not want to pay their bill no matter
how little money is owed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was
another sign that the job I was doing was not in my best interest
whatsoever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I use Uber and Lyft quite
often to get myself back and forth from place to place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I started to get picked up from drivers who
“used” to work at Toyota Financial themselves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This was not only an indicator that I was in the wrong job, but that my
time as a customer service representative would come to an end shortly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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A few weeks after the events described above came and went,
I was let go from my position at Toyota Financial Services.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was not let go due to performance
issues.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was ok with my job for the
most part, but my job was not ok with me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If this were the case, then I would still be there now taking the exact
same calls over and over again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I saw
all the signs telling me to get out, but I did not think that my time would
come so soon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The reason given for my
termination was because I was absent too many times within a short period.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was only out three times within two
months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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What I learned is that there is no such thing as external
security.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is up to the individual to
be secure in his or her own decisions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>What may seem secure may disintegrate in the blink of an eye.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is no point in holding yourself back in
life due to the false sense of security that something else may bring an
individual.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everyone secures themselves
by committing to their decisions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That
is the only security one has in life anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We can only secure the choices that we make.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything else is always up in the air.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
<br />Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-32212779511418201402018-05-14T14:52:00.000-07:002018-05-14T14:52:30.098-07:00What Fear Really Means<br />
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When a person decides to engage in something, he or she
usually does this based on how much fear is present within him or herself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everyone speaks of fear as if it is
multifaceted in some way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is only
one fear, but the human mind puts labels on what that one fear is for the
individual.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No one is actually afraid of
anything itself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What people fear the
most is the perceived lack of knowledge of how things will work out.<o:p></o:p></div>
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The human mind loves being guaranteed something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The guarantee eases us into believing that we
have knowledge of how a situation will work out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No one actually fears lack of money, home,
friends, or relationships.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What these
fears are is actually just the feeling of not having the knowledge of how
things will fall into place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What
actually leads to negative situation is when people try to control everything
in their lives so that nothing bad happens.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The more that a person tries to make something happen a certain way, the
harder it usually ends up being for him or her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><br /></span></div>
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I have been dealing with lack of knowledge issues myself in
recent times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My whole world changed
completely in March of this year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got
a new job working for Toyota Financial Services.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Three weeks after I landed this job, I scored
a job interview in my desired city of Phoenix Arizona three weeks later.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I took my chances and flew out there for the
interview.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never had been to Phoenix
before, but I have been doing a lot of research about the area because I plan
to move there by the end of June.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, I
put my current job at risk in order to achieve something better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It turns out that the job was not quite up to
par with what I had been told over the phone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ended up not getting the job anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was not too crushed because deep inside I knew I was worth more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did fear pop up and make me wonder I was
going to make my move happen since I did not have all the information?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes it did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will succumb to it from time to time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>All fear does is keep a person from moving forward.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The individual keeps beating to the same old
drum, and he or she gets stuck in a loop.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I then had an opportunity to go to Maui for a mindset
workshop.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Getting a plane ticket to Maui
is not cheap on an income of $17 an hour, but I did it anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The decision to take this trip was up in the
air for a couple of days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wrestled
with this decision for a lot of hours before deciding that I wanted to change
my life once and for all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wavered
back and forth on this decision because I feared the lack knowledge that of how
things will turn out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still remain
uncertain even now about how everything will be paid for as far the entire
event is concerned, but all I can do is live an authentic life and have faith
that something will pull through before everything takes place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I invested all the resources I had into
traveling and changing my life around for the better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I can really do at this point is let my
investment work for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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Due to changing my priorities, I lost my position at Toyota
Financial Services.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This made me doubt
everything I invested in up into this point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My mind went into a loop, and I thought all of my decisions were
garbage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In actuality, all that really
happened is that a new road opened up for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>In order to go down this new road, I had to put on my turn signal and
get off the old road so that I could travel on the new one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My bank account at a glance looks a lot
smaller than it did a few weeks ago, but this is not the case.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have not allowed the money I invested to
finish working for me in order to bring a greater amount of return.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Most people would say that I do not have
money right now, but that is because my money all tied up in investments.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do I feel comfortable about this all the
time?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The short answer is no.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do I still fear the lack of knowledge regarding
all of these investments?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The answer is
yes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The only thing is that I have to go
through with it anyway because a better life awaits me on the other side of
this perceived lack of knowledge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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There is no trick to winning against the one and only
fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The goal is not to make the fear
less prevalent, but to make one’s desire to live their truth stronger than the
lack of knowledge. Once a person’s desire to live his or her truth is big
enough to make the lack of knowledge seem small, then he or she will see that
fear is just an illusion that was created by the mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
<br />Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-56672965403524921092018-05-02T12:55:00.003-07:002018-05-02T12:58:38.183-07:00Tips on Parenting a Child with Disabilities<div class="MsoNormal">
When speaking of disabilities, the focus always in on the on
the individuals who are suffering from them.
There is not a whole lot of guidance for parents living with other
individuals with disabilities. Sure,
there are the medical journals that try to prepare the anticipating mother and
father about what they can expect from their child, but the content within this
medium only gives the basics. One size
does not fit all, when it comes to children who are disabled. Here are some other tips to consider when
going about day to day life.</div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->Accept the fact that your child functions
differently than those who do not have a disability. The child will have to learn how to do things
that might seem to go against the “norm” of how everyone else was taught. Do not try too harshly to appear too “normal”
in order to function in society. Do not
let everything slide, but do not become so strict to the point where things are
more difficult than they really have to be.
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->Avoid telling your child that his or her life is
harder than everyone else’s. The only
reason why this is said is due to limited thought patterns. If you find alternate solutions to problems,
then your child’s life does not have to be harder.<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->Find a balance between letting your child do
things him or herself and helping out when necessary. <o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->Avoid taking the seemingly easiest route in
every case. We all do not like hurdles
in life, but sometimes these hurdles show us things that we never realized
before. Your child will have his or her
own set of challenges that he or she must face.
An example of such a challenge would be a grown child living inside of a
rancher home with a parent because most apartment complexes have steps, While this sounds like the logical option at
first glance, this will keep your child from growing as an individual. Adapting to new situations will help your
child realize how capable he or she is as a person, it will give him or a boost
in confidence. <o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->Avoid doing something for your child because he
or she is too slow to complete the task.
If the task needs to be handled in addition steps, then so be it. Your child will get faster and learn new ways
to do things as his or her skills grow. <o:p></o:p></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]-->Do not tell your child that he or she cannot do
something because of their disability.
This can create a lifelong belief that goals cannot be achieved because
of something out of the individual’s control.
Since he or she believes that his or her desires cannot be fulfilled due
to having a disability, then the individual will not even believe that smaller
day to day things can be accomplished.</div>
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It is always harder to do the right thing than it is to go
with popular opinion. Disabilities are
still seen as something that impacts a person’s life in a negative way with
absolutely no positive benefits whatsoever.
The fact of the matter is that people with disabilities have the
potential to teach others what it is like to live authentically. Do not let your child live a mundane existence
where he or she feels that life limited in every way possible. One of the best gifts in life is to share
one’s wisdom with others. Your child
will acquire knowledge that a lot of other people will not know about, and this
is what makes their potential to succeed in life so great. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-27377894714380874272018-03-11T11:20:00.000-07:002018-03-11T11:20:29.449-07:00Molehills to Mountains Minor pet peeves can get bigger if an individual does not honor his or her emotions. If one does not create a boundary for him herself, then things can go south pretty fast. It is always that one person who disrespects another individual in small ways that add up over time. This person in my life is my roommate.<br />
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The relationship as a whole is not too terrible. I found it rather annoying that she laughed at me when I said that I wanted a new dresser for Christmas this past year. Both she and I were not doing that well financially last year. Even with this fact, I did not appreciate the laughter. I should have said something in the car when this competition conversation transpired, but I did not want to start an argument over it. Being positive can be difficult sometimes due to my roommates negativity. Sometimes I absorb her negative thinking and believe that it is my own. I was worried about doing my taxes while living under the table in a different place than what is on my legal documents. The thing that I did not realize at the time is that my roommate prefers the apartment to look as if no one else lives there but her and so that line of thinking entered my head while trying to get my taxes done for the current year. I still have ways to go in deflecting the negativity of others.<br />
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My roommate is always in a rush to get somewhere. I question where she is trying to get half the time because I do not understand the reaeon behind it. She would drive me somewhere, and then rush me to get out of the car. It is only a few minutes more, so I don't understand what the big deal is really about. You always have more time. Time does not go anywhere My roommate seems like she has a split personality. She can be so gentle at times, and then gets caught up in anger. It is rather weird.<br />
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Maybe I try too hard to look past an individual's fault in order to see his or her more positive traits. I should call her out on things when they happen and stick up for myself more often instead of letting things slide. The truth of the matter is that the relationship does not work. it never has. My roommate let me stay at her place due to a foreclosure on my father's house. It is time for me to move on and say goodbye. There's no point in trying to prolong my stay. We are in two different worlds trying to occupy the same space, but it is not working any longer. Letting go can be difficult, but it is a necessary evil when it comes to moving forward in one's life. I accept that this aspect no longer works, and I want to embrace the new coming into my life.Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-25571391518658616702018-03-11T07:27:00.000-07:002018-03-11T07:27:51.947-07:00The Fear that Lurks Deep WithinThe first time I felt the need to leave my job was when I was kicked off on storm duty in January 2016. My supervisor said that I was too sluggish getting inside the building when there was thirty inches of snow on the ground. She also indicated that I was holding up other people from starting work on time because they needed to help me get inside. I got put up in a hotel, and the company almost made me pay for it. After I returned to work, I started getting sick left and right. I had Pharyngitis, and I was diagnosed with adult allergies. My supervisor kept telling me to go home a lot. When I eventually caved in, I got hit with a warning for taking too many sick days. mMy father eventually passed away and I could not find adequate transportation back to work. I got on short term disability, and I was told that my leave could last up to a year by the HR supervisor. The head nurse Sallie Dicus kept pushing me to go for long term disability even after I told her that no doctor would sign for it. I saw a psychiatrist, and he stated that he would need to see me for a few months before he would sign anything.<br />
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My whole problem was the company I worked for would not make any good accommodations to help me continue with employment. The company was perfectly capable of turning me into a mobile representative. Due to a specific rule that says a rep needs to have all three skill levels to become mobile is ridiculous. I had high marks on all my call reviews and was exceeding expectations. The company should have met me halfway, but policy was policy and nothing could be done.<br />
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I'm grateful for the experience because it taught me how to stand up for myself. I now know how to make quick and important decisions because of everything that transpired. I have learned to take my power back. This whole incident created my fear of working in corporations as a whole, but the only reason the fear existed was because I was too afraid to go to extremes to better my life. <br />
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To add insult to injury, I have taken a shadow job instead of going for the one that I really want. The job that I have taken has a lot of similarities to the job that I really desire, but it's just not as good. I had the idea that if I took one job that I could not have the other one. However, I can always leave a job for the real one at any point. I fear being locked into a contract, and not being able to escape. The thing I need to understand is that I and always a free agent. No one owns me whatsoever. I can pick and choose how I run my life. If a few bridges burn, then so be it. There are plenty more bridges to be crossed. <br />
<br />Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-8067959352724321052018-01-15T12:45:00.000-08:002018-01-15T12:45:19.129-08:00Life is what you make itLife can throw a bigger curveball than expected. It is important that one keeps a positive attitude and outlook during this time. when a person believes that he or she has already achieved his or her goals then things will flow more smoothly. The negative aspects of a situation will not seem so terrible as they might look at first glance.<br />
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The smaller things are what one needs to remember when faced with hard times. Health mobility, and thoughts almost always are taken for granted by most people. If someone has the ability to get up in the morning without an issue, then he or she can physically make things better for him or herself. Thoughts are what dictates what a person does on a day-to-day basis. If someone chooses thoughts that allow him or her to be adaptable, then a positive outcome will be reached. The more a person thinks about the struggle he or she is facing the more difficult it will become. whatever one puts out into the world will come back to him or her later on down the road. This is why showing gratitude for what one has is important. The more a person is happy with what he or she does have, then the faster other desired goods will come into one's life. <br />
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Life is made up of whatever one focuses on the most. Options are always available to everyone, but a lot of them are not taken into consideration due to the fear of things not working out. The options that are passed up could be the best way to change one's situation. The key is to be open to anything that presents itself and things just might go in the desired direction.</div>
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-31911257732366754832017-10-20T12:35:00.000-07:002017-10-20T12:35:45.397-07:00The Ignorant Empath<div class="MsoNormal">
Energy can be a difficult source to identify. Everything itself is made up of energy, so
one would not think that it would be a hard concept to understand. The truth of the matter is that identifying
the energy of a specific thing is rather challenging when an individual absorbs
the energy of others and does not realize it.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I am what might be labeled as a thought empath. Other people’s thoughts tend to stick with me
for quite some time after they have been expressed. This also means that I absorb a lot of the
negative energy from others. This
happened a lot when the house from my childhood was up for short sale. I was still living in the place at the time
due to having nowhere else to go. Most
of my family kept worrying about me becoming homeless. That was also a worry of mine as well, but I
did not think the bank would be too quick to claim a property that was so run
down that it was not even worth half the amount of the loans taken out against
it. Instead of having more of an
optimistic outlook on the situation, I began to absorb all the negativity my
neighbor would express about the whole housing issue. Since I had my own worries about housing, I
did not realize how much of an impact he was having on my thoughts. Then one day, my neighbor came over to have
me sign some papers in regards to the short sale, since he was also the realtor
trying to sell the place. I was feeling
generally happy before he showed up.
After my neighbor left, thoughts of homelessness kept coming back into
my head throughout the day. I could not
shake them whatsoever. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Energy from others can also have an impact on the speed at
which I receive thoughts as well as the mood I am currently experiencing at the
current moment. I tend to have quite the
imagination. When I am around a whole
lot of noise, my imagination goes on overload, and my mood skyrockets into a
level of euphoria unknown to most people.
Even after I leave the area where all the noise was occurring, it takes
me a while to get back into a balanced mood.
Thoughts keep coming and the laughter never stops. Sometimes I can get this way when I am all
alone, but the euphoric mood is usually more prominent when I am in a room with
a lot of people or noise. In other
words, the euphoric mood strikes when there is a lot of energy moving
around. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I always believed that all the thoughts I ever had were my
own, but it turns out that this might not be the case. I just have to learn how protect myself in
the future from rooms with a lot of energy flowing back and forth. I also need to realize that maybe not every
thought that pops into my head is my own.
The seed of a certain line of thought might actually be from someone
else, and has nothing to do with me at all.
Only time will tell how much truth there is to this new knowledge I have
acquired. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-16731376406473855112017-07-26T08:05:00.000-07:002017-08-01T07:27:47.596-07:00Traversing Through Transitions in Life. <div class="MsoNormal">
Everyone goes through hard times every now and again. During these periods, one has the potential
to grow stronger. Sometimes, when
blockades seem to be everywhere, it is best for an individual to focus on what
he or she can do to inspire other people instead of trying to find an immediate
solution to a problem that keeps persisting.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I have been going through housing and career challenges for
a little over a year now. All the old in
my life is leaving, but as of right now, it does not feel like any new is
coming in to replace what has been lost.
It feels like I will just end up in a dark void somewhere. I take this as a sign that I need to realize
what talents that I already do have and need to use it in order to uplift other
people. I am too focused on trying to
put an end to a situation instead of enjoying what I do have. This seems to be a “go with flow” period in
my life. The more I force things to come
to an end, the more blockades tend to pop up.
In other words, I have Chinese fingertrapped myself. The more I keep pulling the worse everything
gets. I have to learn how to relax and
move forward with caution. Everyone from
my past seems to have exited my life at this point. Now I am forced to take a big leap of
faith. I have never taken a huge risk in
my life. It does not really seem like I
have much of a choice in the matter. The
best thing that I can do for myself at this point is to have patience and keep
inspiring other people through my writing until I can obtain clarity on this
issue. <o:p></o:p></div>
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If a person is stuck in a situation for a long time, then he
or she most likely needs to look at what type energy is coming from him or
her. Is the individual coming from a
place of fear or a place of love? It is
obvious that all of these blockades are just representations of the
insecurities that I feel inside my own mind.
The same would probably hold true for everyone else as well. One needs to find the positive aspects of the
imagined turmoil in his or her life in order to succeed. Once a person is accepting of the new, then
it will start coming into his or her life. <br />
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<o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-9998771198919561412017-07-21T03:48:00.000-07:002017-07-21T03:48:21.111-07:00Independence is a Nightmare<div class="MsoNormal">
Taking big leaps in life can be difficult for absolutely
everyone. They can be devastating for
those who have never lived independently at any point during his or her
life. Independence is a freeing
experience, but it means that the illusions one might have lived under are now gone. One finally realizes the weight of every
decision he or she makes. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I lived a sheltered life when I was younger due to being
born with Cerebral Palsy. My mother did
not let me do anything by myself. She
always insisted on helping me with absolutely everything. I never learned how to do basic things like dressing
myself, going number two, and tying shoes until much later in my childhood than
most other people. <o:p></o:p></div>
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My father saw me as a source of pride. He was proud of me for graduating
college. This was not for my sake. It was for bragging rights on how well his
bloodline was doing. I had to do
everything the way my father wanted without question. Every time I would fight him on something, he
would bring up the fact that he paid for my college education. My father also
helped me get from place to place since I could not drive.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
My job mimicked the relationship that my father and I
shared. I was told what to do and
when. I spoke to people on the phone
using a script template helping them with their unpaid bills. The only thing was that most people did not
really want help understanding anything.
All they wanted to do was complain about why they could not work or
whine about every minor tax charge on the bill.
The customers would ask what all of the tax charges meant. I hated explaining every minor tax charge
because there really was not a straight answer what each tax item. I wanted to tell these people that taxes are
part of life and to stop nickel and diming everything. Maybe they would they
would get somewhere in life is they actually put effort towards something
productive instead of arguing taxes that add up to a dollar on the second page
of a bill. I actually failed a call one
time just because I politely told a customer that the reason that his was high
was because he had not payment on it in five months. I was told that I should have told him about energy
saving tips instead. Each individual
bill was not high so telling the customer about the energy tips would have been
incorrect information. <o:p></o:p></div>
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After my father passed away last year, I felt free for the
first time in my life. I could actually
do what I wanted. I started studying a
lot as well as writing. I had started a
youtube channel a few years earlier and went back and forth on whether I should
continue making videos. I thought that I
would eventually find my way if I followed my passions to a degree. Now everything has come crashing down. I lost
my job, my doctor, my family, and my home.
I never had anything in my name before my father passed away, so
organizations including homeless shelters will not help me. I still have not narrowed down what I want to
do with my life. I do not know how to
take steps to write for a living or counsel others. I do not have the money for school. Due to transportation restrains, I cannot
afford to travel far away for job interviews.
I majored in philosophy when I went to college and graduated with
Bachelor’s degree in Liberal Arts. I
decided to go into philosophy because I was bad at both math and science. I lack practical skills outside Microsoft
Office. I do not perform well in fast
paced environments. Due to not being
able to drive, my chances of being promoted to a high position by a company are
rather slim. Corporations want people
that can adapt to new situations immediately.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Since I have lost everything in the area I am living now, I
decided that the best course of action is to move far away. I kept getting blocked from getting a place
in the Baltimore area, so I took that as a sign that I should not be here
anymore. I do not know how to take steps
to move somewhere else, and I cannot get help from anyone else because everyone
I know is living in survival mode and feel that they cannot sustain themselves
if they are not working at their jobs 24/7.
<o:p></o:p></div>
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I have begun to wonder if counseling others and writing is
what I truly want to do, or is it something that seems desirable because it is
better than call center work. What if
somehow I found a practical application for writing and counseling, but ended
up hating it? It does not seem like I will actually get the
chance to see if that is true or not since I cannot figure out how to actually
make money doing what I say I like to do.
Most of the daily grind jobs out there right now are customer service or
sales jobs that pay less than where I was employed. If my soul screamed like a banshee for me to
get out of my current job, then why is it being so coy about what I should do
next with my life? When things are not
going the way the universe wants, it will make a person ill so he or she will slow
down and focus on other things, but when the individual does not know the steps
to take, the universe only gives out small hints on what to do. How did I get too sensitive to work in a call
center in the first place? I worked for
two years without a problem, and then all the sudden, everything about the
place bothered me to no end. I also got
sick a lot as well. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I am not trying to state that the universe is against me,
but I feel as though it is having its cake and eating it too. It tells me in a sharp manner to head a
different direction than the one that I have been going towards, but then it
uses the “free will” card when it comes to what I should do next. Where are all the theatrics and light shows
when it comes to my new path? Where was
the “free will” card before I started having lucid dreams and incidents of
sickness telling me to go in a different direction? As I stated earlier I worked at the call
center years without much of a problem.
I was fine with the job back then.
I never asked to have lucid dreams.
I did not know that lucid dreaming was possible, nor did I attempt to have
a lucid dream. Where was my Now I have to get a similar job to what I
just had that will pay a lot less. Then
when I do not have time to engage in my passions, the universe will once again
come up on me and make me sick all. I
will be back to square one. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I do not know how to finish the cycle I am in right
now. I do not know how to meet my needs
in a way that is actually beneficial to my sense of self. I get thrusted in this new direction with no
clarity about how to navigate. I learned
a lot of things and met many great people, but all of this does not help me manifest
what I want in a practical way. I have a
lot of obstacles in my way that I do not know how to overcome by myself without
help. I have already asked help from
others numerous times and was turned away.
<o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I do not understand how the universe expects me to be this
independent right out of the gate.
People usually have to learn the ropes before they can do everything by
themselves. I am not completely in the
dark. I know how to take care of daily
practical matters, but I am being asked to figure everything out myself even
though the obstacles I face can only be overcome by multiple people. I am just beginning to do things on my own,
so why am I facing challenges that somebody with twenty years of experience of
being independent would have a tough time handling? I have asked the spirit world for help as
well, but all I ever see is mixes 1s and 7s, 3s and 7s, 4s and 7s, and 1s and
6s. The first three mixed numbers
indicate that I am headed in the right direction. The last number means to ask for help from
others in regards to a material situation.
I am not going to count the times that I have asked for help and was
turned down. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I have done everything that I can possibly think of at this
point. The only thing I have not done is
look how to ship my belongings across the country. I will probably try that next. My life in Baltimore is pretty over at this
point, and staying that much longer would just be procrastinating the
inevitable. If there is not anything
here, then that is it. Under normal
circumstances, one needs to plan out a big move, but all the events that have
taken place are hardly traditional by any stretch of the imagination. I am just going to have to figure out how to
use my newly found sensitive and my writing skills as I go along. I am not a huge fan of this approach, but it
is all that I have as of right now. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-89551068279103191282017-07-06T12:49:00.000-07:002017-07-06T13:00:09.493-07:00Detransition: The Little Black Sheep<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;">Detransition is
seen as taboo within the transgender community.
A lot of people fear discussing it because they do not want to admit
that it could be them one day. Those
that oppose the transgender community use detransition as a reason why
transgenderism is disorder of some kind and not an actual identity. Most just tend to avoid the topic
altogether. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;">There are a few
things that I noticed when doing some minor research about the issue
online. Detransiton seems to be a bit
more common in the the female to male population and less so from those who
transitioned from male to female. I looked up detransition on youtube a few
times and most people who shared their stories were female to male. An article
I read over the internet through a friend focused mostly on those that
transitioned from female to male. I
cannot put my finger on why this is the case. My best guess is that the <span class="textexposedshow">health risks associated with testosterone are lot more
severe than the ones linked to taking estrogen. Maybe that is a bit of a
stretch, but it is known that testosterone is a stronger hormone than
estrogen. It will not take as long for
one to see the effects of the changes in his or her body as it would for
someone transitioning from male to female. Other than this small observation, it is still
a mystery as to why detransition seems more common among the female to male population.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;"><br />
<span class="textexposedshow">Some people have reported going through another
serious issue in their lives at the time they decided to transition. A person's life is not going to magically
change just because he or she transitioned. One has to transition for him or
herself. An individual is still going to have the same interests and emotions
as before the transition took place. A person will have the same traits as he
or she did before his or transition took place. An individual might be happier
after transition, but the other aspects of him or her probably will not change
that much. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
<span class="textexposedshow"><span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;">There has been a lot of talk regarding how easy going doctors
are these days to prescribe hormones.
Some argue that medical professionals should probe individuals about why
they want to start hormones to make sure they are doing it for a good
reason. I do not think that care for
transgender individuals needs to go back to the “gatekeeper” system, but I do
think that a person should think about things long and hard before they do
anything to his or her body. A person should be able to do what he or she wants
with his or her body. I do believe that there should be guidance, but the
decision is ultimately up to the individual. If the person regrets the decision
later in life, then he or she will have to deal with those consequences. This is why some people choose to live as the
other gender for a while before they start hormones. No one says anything when
people are of drinking age or smoke cigarettes, so why should hormones be any
different? I was told the risks of
hormones before I took them. I had to sign a paper stating I understood that
what I was going to do to do to my body was of my own free will. Being “young and stupid” is not an excuse to
institutionalize “gatekeeping.” Any
transgender person could decide to come off of hormones at any time. They will still have to deal with the
repercussions of what will happen to his or her body. </span></span><span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;"><br />
<br />
<span class="textexposedshow">The question regarding hormones being right for an
individual is actually rather simple. Does one feel that in-congruent with his
or her body enough to want to alter it almost permanently outside of other
persisting issues? Being transgender can
be extremely confusing. I was confused
for ten years before I took any serious steps to do anything about my
dysphoria. Hormones are not a joke by any means. Even
though, it takes a while to physically notice a difference in one's body, the
changes start from the first dose that is taken.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span class="textexposedshow"><span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span class="textexposedshow"><span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;">The key to having a successful transition is to know what all
the risks and challenges are before going forward. There are always going to be things that come
as a surprise when a person begins this process. As long as one takes responsibility for the
choice that he or she has made, then there will never be any regrets regardless
of the outcome. The most important part
about the decision to transition is the power of choice. The individual is living life his or her way. Life itself is all about learning. The journey is more important than the end
result the majority of the time. As long
as one keeps pushing forward, he or she will always come out on top. . </span></span><span style="background: white; color: #1d2129;"><br />
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-74720029952684815932017-07-01T09:55:00.001-07:002017-07-04T23:09:29.880-07:00Freedom is the Greatest tool that Everyone can use<div class="MsoNormal">
(This is another letter that I wrote to my father)</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
Dear father,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
It has come to my attention that you and I still have some
old baggage that we need to square away.
I am not mad at you that much anymore about everything that happened
between us before you died. I know that
you grew up in fifties and sixties when society was trying to force uniformity onto
every individual and business that existed at the time. I learned from an Italian substitute teacher
back in high school that around this time frame, a person’s work was more
important than his or her safety. I am
sure that this extended to self-expression as well. Uniformity was valued over
individualism. I am aware that my existence
threw all of the values that were enforced in your day out the window. I was born with Cerebral Palsy, which made my
body different than the “standard” individual.
I had difficulties in adjusting to how society worked. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I am sure that my transgender nature also came as a big
shock to you. The type of transformation
that I went through was unheard of in your day.
People definitely did not openly express themselves in this manner fifty
years ago. I know that you thought the
best thing for me was to do things the traditional way. Your negative actions towards my
self-expression were just your way of trying to make sure that I did not get
hurt. You were scared that I would
become an outcast in society and ruin my life forever. You thought I was just trying to challenge
the status quo because I could. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
The information that was missing all of these years was the
fact that you never felt as if you could express yourself freely. This is why you and I would argue about the
heat in the winter time. You would
always say “no one is going to tell me what to do in my own house.” The anger that you showed towards me was
because you thought I was taking away your form of self-expression. This is also the reason that you could never
sell the house we lived in together. The
house was your sense of freedom. You
could make your own rules and do things your way. You felt inhibited in every place outside the
home. Even though you and I argued a
lot, we both were fighting for the exact same thing. We both wanted freedom from our inner
turmoil. You wanted freedom from the
constraints that society placed on you long ago, and I wanted the freedom to use
my own power the way that I saw fit. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
The thing that we did not realize was that we could have
obtained our freedom long ago. We let
the conditioning of society get to us, and that is why we felt like we lived in
some type of cage for most of our lives.
You could have opened up a business that revolved around something that
you actually cared about. Maybe you
would have felt like you had freedom outside the home. If I would have stood up for myself earlier
in life and actually learned that I could do more things for myself than I was
led to believe, then maybe I would not have hated you so bad when you were
alive. I felt like I had no freedom
because I always needed help from everyone else. The thing I learned since your death is that
I do not need much help at all. I pay
all the bills on time, and I found out about Uber and Lyft. I could have talked to you about getting a
data plan for the phones in order to download the apps for both services, but I
never did that. I never brought up or
forced the issue, so I did not get anything out of it. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
The events we shared together are all in the past now. I plan to move farther away from the
Baltimore area and create the life I want for myself. The bank owns the house now, so I have to get
out of it in the near future. I no
longer hold any grudges against you.
Become a soul that shines brightly in the universe and use the knowledge
that you gained in our interactions to help others living or dead. You taught me how to take my own power
back. I cannot pinpoint what you have
learned from me, but I hope you learned that all the different ways an
individual can express him or herself is important. Individuals make up society, so when each
person lives authentically, society as a whole becomes a little bit better over
time. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-30085758168319216692017-06-25T07:07:00.000-07:002017-06-25T07:07:28.098-07:00Is Meditation Right for Everyone?<div class="MsoNormal">
Meditation is a practice that a lot of people get into when
their lives start going downhill. One’s
health could also take a turn for the worse as well. Most use meditation in order to calm down
from a stressful situation. The only thing
people do not realize is that the practice of meditation may end up changing
the way they perceive the world.
Unintentional changes may occur if meditation is performed regularly
over an extended period of time. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
When one meditates, he or she calls back to his her own
energy as well as the energies of the universe as a whole. The first thing an individual will most
likely notice is that minor ailments will heal after about a week or two. My arm was always sore from opening up the
bathroom door at my job. My arm healed
up within a week after I started meditating regularly. Falling asleep can occur to beginners even if
one is not lying down. An individual
might experience a lucid dream when this transpires..<o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
After meditating for about three months, an individual might
be able to feel his or her own aura. He
or she might write it off as some body parts falling asleep, but this is not
the case. An individual will eventually
learn that there is nothing wrong with him or her whatsoever. What is actually happening is that the
person’s awareness is growing. The aura
that is felt always existed, but it always went unnoticed by the
individual. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
With all of these changes occurring, one’s beliefs about
many things will also go through a metamorphosis. I used to eat beef semi regularly before I
started to meditate. I stopped eating
beef almost altogether five months after I started meditating. The same most likely has happened to a lot of
others. <o:p></o:p></div>
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One will also start to notice synchronicites. The individual will start learning that coincidences
are nothing more than things with similar energy coming together. When a person thinks or says a certain word
to him or herself, he or she will notice that something else will resemble the
same thought somewhere else in the room regardless if it is written form, from
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If the career a person has is not doing him or her any good,
then regular meditation will eventually lead the individual to rethink what he
or she is doing in life. This happened
to me as well. I was working in a call
center trying to achieve arbitrary daily statistics because I thought that
doing this would actually bring me success.
My job was the only thing that I cared about. After I started meditating on a regular
basis, I realized that I needed to start writing again. I also came to the conclusion that I was a
healer and needed to help other people take their power back. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Meditation has many benefits, but it can also have quite a
few drawbacks depending on the eye of the beholder. If an individual likes his or diet, friends,
job, residence, town, interests, and hobbies, then he or she might not want to
meditate very often if at all. If a
person is happy with living in three dimensions and has no interest in learning
what coexists along with it, then it is advised not to meditate. If an individual likes his or her own
opinions and does not want their views challenged in any way, then meditation
should be avoided at all costs. In
short, if a human being likes his or life the way it is and does not want to
change anything about it, then he or she should not meditate under any
circumstances. <o:p></o:p></div>
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No one warned me that my world would be turned upside down
if I engaged in daily meditation. I went
through a small depression because I felt as if the circumstances in my life
were forcing me to become something I felt I would not have chosen willingly.
After closer examination, I realized that my old life really was not that great
in the first place. This new beginning
was the best thing that could ever happen to me. I figured that I would give an advisory
caution to those new or thinking about getting into meditation. Once a person’s perspective on the world
changes, then he or she will never be able to revert back to old thinking
patterns. One needs to make sure that
the practice of meditation is for him or her before he or she makes it a daily
habit. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-53028616964004104862017-06-23T09:34:00.000-07:002017-06-23T14:56:23.352-07:00The Willingness to Change Leads to truth<div class="MsoNormal">
Going through a spiritual ascension can be a rather
difficult period in one’s life. The
individual’s beliefs start to change.
All of the friends a person had seem to drop off the planet for no
reason. The individual cannot seem to
figure out the next step to take in his or her life. Cold symptoms as well as hot flashes start
appearing on a regular basis. The
sicknesses never escalate into anything serious. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I started going through a spiritual ascension around two
weeks ago. The symptoms I was feeling
mimicked the dental issues that I had back in the winter of 2016. I thought some more teeth were infected in my
mouth. The right side of my face hurt
quite a lot. This issue calmed down six
days later. I then started feel small
burning sensation in my legs, feet, and lower back. The back of my head also felt like this as
well. They feel like hot poker
burns. This type of inflammation feels
hot temperature wise. The inflammation
comes and goes spontaneously. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I have been going through some serious fatigue. I do not feel like doing anything a lot of
the time. Going to the bathroom has also
changed as well. My body tends to want
to release fecal matter a little at time in chunks that are less solid than
usual. My body also does not feel as
heavy even after eating foods such as lasagna or pizza. <o:p></o:p></div>
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All of the symptoms are probably just indicators of something
much bigger that will happen to me. I am
not talking about moving from one place to another or getting a new job. Something else will happen that will tie
everything together. Whether this is
something big in itself or something small that will be used to propel me
forward to where I am supposed to go.
The solution to all of my issues is not going to be something easy. I am going to have to take a huge leap if I
want live my life my way. No one else is
going to be able to help me do it. Most
people do not bother taking their own power back. I am trying to break free from the “daily
grind” and live a life worth living. I
can only rely on myself to reach this goal.
There might be others here and there that might help me do specific
things, but the rest is up to me. <o:p></o:p></div>
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A spiritual ascension will push individual to his or
limits. It is going to strip away
everything that is false about the individual with only the core exposed. A spiritual ascension is where one’s
authentic self truly starts to come into its own. An individual can try to go back to what he
or she did before, but it will not last.
The old way of living will collapse in on itself and take the person
along with it. One can either choose to
follow his or her heart willingly, or the universe will use circumstances to
force the individual to change. Everyone
has the will to decide to live up to their own truth or choose to hide away for
the rest of their lives. I am trying to
change willingly. I still have my bad
habits, but I am still trying to push forward anyway. I look forward to making the most of this
energetic change that I am going through.
The changes that a spiritual ascension brings do seem scary from time to
time, but they are most likely necessarily for an individual to achieve his or
her desired goal. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-62847978812628094592017-06-16T04:31:00.002-07:002017-06-27T14:18:00.984-07:00Finding your true Voice<div class="MsoNormal">
Finding one’s own voice can be a difficult challenge to
overcome. It can be hard to tell if the
conclusions that a person comes to are the right ones. Listening to other people will most likely
lead one astray from his or her own beliefs.
This is especially true when an individual is trying to achieve
something that takes a group effort. At
the end of the day, each person has his or her own reasons for accomplishing
the same goal. This is what makes
achieving something on a grand scale so challenging. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I have difficulty finding my voice a good majority of the
time. This is because I want to make
sure that I have everything straight before I start a venture of some
kind. The problem of trying to get
everything right the first time is that change occurs as things progress. It is nice to try to plan things out, but the
trouble with this philosophy is that an individual can only plan a little ahead
of time. Perfectionism leads to
procrastination. Procrastination leads
to missed opportunities, which in turn leads to despair and then silence. A person has to learn to follow his or her
dreams from the moment that he or she has these ideas. Once the individual starts actually living
authentically, then those with similar values and beliefs will start to
appear. If people waver in what they
want to do, then this will lead to mixed results. Their voices will not appear as strong
because their beliefs have not been solidified.
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Speaking one’s truth means sticking by one’s guns regardless
of what the outcome might be. It means
investing a good chunk of your own resources with the faith that everything
will turn out alright. I wavered too
much in what I wanted to do with myself because I was afraid that things would
not work out. By not choosing a clear
path, I actually made a situation that I am current facing a lot worse than it
had to be. I fell into despair about a
week ago, and now I am trying to reclaim my voice once again. I have a lot work that I need to do if I want
to get where I want to go. <o:p></o:p></div>
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When one uses his or her true voice fully one hundred
percent of the time, then doors start to open for the individual. When an individual uses his or her true voice
only part of the time, then he or she will be headed towards a fall. If one is going to go for something, then he
or she needs do so with complete conviction without any regrets. Success is something that is achieved. It is not something given to those who lack
the belief to take a big leap. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-38039068833808489372017-05-25T06:08:00.001-07:002017-06-02T13:06:08.795-07:00A Fragment in time that Changed my life Forever<div class="MsoNormal">
Author's note: (I just wanted to share something that I wrote a little over a year ago. I recently have been a little down and out, but then I realized how far that I have come. My thoughts are a lot more coherent now than ever before. This is because of all of those who have taken time to read what I have written. If no one read what I have posted, then I would have never gone anywhere. Thanks goes out to all that have stood by me all of this time.) </div>
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A person’s career is one of the most important aspects in
his or her life. Choosing the right path
in regards to employment can be rather hard task due to pressures from the
outside world. A closer look at the
personal traits of an individual will reveal the career that is best suited for
him or her.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I am a heavily introverted person and tend to be receptive
of the world instead of active. I am
slow to process information while evaluating the world around me before I come
to any conclusions whatsoever. I have a constant
barrage of thoughts going through my head every second of the day. I am a very imaginative human being despite
coming off as mechanical in everything that I do. Unordinary thoughts pop into my head at times
when they shouldn’t. I used to get angry
at myself for being this way. I wanted
to be like everyone else and focus on the task at hand as it is presented to
me. However, I was not meant to be this way. My inner world will always be a lot stronger
than my outer world. My inner world will
dominate me even if I am in a room with hundreds of others. When I lose my voice within my head due to
sounds from the outer world, then I get frustrated and want to leave the area. This is because I tend to pop in and out of
existence when my inner world is threatened.
Without my thoughts, I am just a corpse, and I cease to be a human
being. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Working in call center poses huge problems in regards to my
personality type. I take calls back to
back with no breathing room in between.
The loud beeping gets annoying quickly each time a call comes
through. The cell phone reception these
customers have is complete garbage. The
volume of the static is unbearable in a lot of cases. This means that my inner world is taken away
from me. This means that I pop in and
out of existence while on the phone with other people. This can create confusion in my speech, and
so I will have to end up restating information multiple to customers due to my
inner world and outer world competing for my attention. My mind does not know which one to pick,
which results into speech that can sometimes seem nonsensical. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Break times are also a huge deal for me within the confines
of the call center. We have two fifteen
minute breaks within an eight and half hour period. There is a half hour time slot for lunch that
can be taken away if calls keep coming through at an alarming right. In situations such as this, everybody works
through lunch. The company provides, but
what is the point when no one has time to eat it? A person can only pack so much food into his
or her cheek. Everyone is also required
to work mandatory on call on weeks assigned to them. If a person has an early schedule, then he or
she could be working up to four hours extra without any extra break. People need adhere to the schedule that is
given. There is a bit of leeway
regarding the time someone’s paid break begins and ends due to how long the
last call runs before that individual can use his or her break time. Going
to the bathroom twice in ten to twelve hours is not enough for anyone with a
sensitive pelvic floor. I am sure others
with a standard functioning pelvic floor are suffering as well, but to a lesser
degree. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The way the call center operates with sick days is flat out
ridiculous. If a person calls out sick,
then he or she has to call three different numbers. The employee needs to call his or her
supervisor, the attendance line, and the human resources department. The human resources department should not
have any say on sickness whatsoever. I
had a few issues regarding potential gingivitis and pharyngitis. I also had a few doctor appoints and a
meeting with a lawyer that I needed to be present for during the winter months
of 2016. Because the company was in the
middle of high bill season, I was not allowed take off for any reason. I used sick time in order to go to all of my
appointments. It turns out that the
company no longer offers the option to use the floating holidays everyone
receives on a yearly basis as sick time.
I was formally written up for being sick too often. One of days I was sick was due to the company
encouraging me to go home due to coughing up a storm for a week straight. The reason that this issue transpired is
because the departments within the company that I work for do not communicate
with one another. Every time I have
called down to another department to ask a question about a process for a
customer’s account, the person on the other line has no clue what needs to be
done. No one talks to one another about
anything or anyone. Once an individual
moves from the call center to another department, then he or she forgets all
the knowledge that was learned during his or her time taking calls. An employee should carry knowledge from one
department to another even if the knowledge learned does not relate directly to
the workload that the employee will be responsible for. What is the point of doing a job if you are
not going to learn anything from doing it?
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All of these events have led me to contemplate about
embarking on a new career path. It is
clear that a highly sensitive individual such as myself has no business in a
call center. This call center is for
extraverted who react to situations quickly without any kind reflection. I do not know how to smooth things over in a
nice way. I am not overly blunt with the
customers that I talk to everyday, but I do not know how to say things in order
to alleviate the angry emotions that the customers are experiencing. This is because I have to stick to the
“script” that I was given in training.
If I cannot interact with the public in an honest and fulfilling way,
then what is the point of my job other than to appease people? If I cannot apply the skills I have learned
throughout the entire company, then how can I take my career seriously when all
I am doing work to keep myself busy. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Because of all of the hustling that I have been doing, my
health has declined. I do not eat or
drink the way that I should. My lower
back arms hurt from being leaned over a desk all day. The door to the bathroom is also ridiculously
heavy, and has definitely hurt my arm.
Eight hours of sleep is not enough for a person with a dominant inner world. I will sleep for eight hours and wake up
feeling drained. My throat is dry and
scratchy all the time. I actually was
diagnosed with adult allergies. I am not
one to question doctors too often, but the diagnosis I was given was not
correct. I think my issue is that my
voice and throat gets tired of yelling at people because no one understands me
when I speak at a regular. This constant
yelling has caused me to have throat issues.
The lack of sleep probably contributes to my sinus problems. Eight hours of sleep is not enough recharge
my body. The customers steal every ounce
of energy that I have. This means that I
have no energy to engage in any extracurricular activities on the
weekends. The weekends are spent
sleeping or listening to music in order to build up the strength for the
following work week. When I finally took
a vacation, my health improved in just three days. I no longer had pain in my back or arm. My mental energy could be used in a
productive manner. I did not feel like I
had to rest up for two days in a row just to be able to survive. One might say that almost every person does
not like his or her job. While that may
be true, not everyone has a job that impacts their well-being so much that
there they cannot do anything else.
These issues go beyond not liking my job. It is destroying my essence as a living
creature. A highly sensitive introvert
like me needs a career path that meets my need to create while also allowing me
time alone to recharge my energy.
Everyone has to face obstacles that go against who he or she is as a
person at some point, but no one should be forced to act the opposite way to
how he or she actually is every day of his or her life. I need a career that allows me to put my best
foot forward. Anyone can do anything for
a short amount of time and be fine. For
example, suppose that someone is great at working with appliances and
electronics obtains a job as an editor for a publishing company. He or she might be good at the job for a
while, but his or her extraverted needs will not be met sitting inside a room
at a computer not talking to people on a regular basis. This person will eventually feel as though he
or she is wasting his or her talent editing papers. This individual would most likely feel more
actualized working as a plumber instead of remaining locked in one room all day
long. Who you are will eventually catch
up with you. A person has to choose what
is important to him or her. Should a
person sacrifice his or her health for financial security, or should he or she
feel good about him or herself from a mental perspective and sacrifice material
perks to feel healthy on the inside? <o:p></o:p></div>
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The answer is pretty clear in my situation. I need to leave the extraverted life of the
call center in order for my health to improve.
I will have to worry about money for a while, but in the end, I will
feel better about my mental state. I
will be able to be creative and feel as though I have enough energy to finish
things to completion. There will be some
tough times ahead, but I have weathered through the employment storm before, and
I can do it again. I need to find my
purpose in life. The universe is not
going to put me through sixteen surgeries and a gender transformation just so I
can sit inside of a call center and not be able to interact with others as an
authentic human being. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-3264578598706989232017-04-23T09:51:00.002-07:002017-06-02T13:03:18.679-07:00The Challenge that is Forgiveness<div class="MsoNormal">
Everyone goes through tough situations in their lives. During these trying times, a person can be in
a relationship with someone else that is not fulfilling whatsoever. The relationship continues to exist because
both parties feel that they need one another for a specific reason. Neither party will realize that he or she
could have existed without the other until a major event drives them
apart. I had this type of relationship
with my father.<o:p></o:p></div>
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The relationship my father and I shared was based mostly
around material goods. I have a
condition known as Cerebral Palsy. This
makes it difficult for me to traverse any kind of incline. At the time, I thought I was unable to obtain
my own place. I worked ten to twelve
hours a day at my call center job. I
remained ignorant to every other aspect of my life. I did not really notice my father’s health
like I should have. I was too busy
trying to climb the corporate ladder to really focus on my father’s health. He took thirteen pills twice a day. Most of the pills were for difficulties with
the heart. My father had quadruple
bypass surgery in May of 2004. He wanted
to get fried chicken his first day home from the hospital.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I did not do a lot at home.
The house was always a mess because my father never put anything
away. I was too drained from arguing
with people about their bills to even give a crap. I did clean my father’s messes up quite a few
times, but then I got tired of it. He
used to yell at me for taking out the trash because it was “easier” for him to
do it. The only problem is that my
father never did it. The trash bins
would overflow, and he would let everything sit.<o:p></o:p></div>
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My father became a bump on a log outside of driving me back
and forth to work every day. He would
just sit on the couch and watch TV without moving. His fingers on one hand had turned brown due
to lack of bathing. I told him to go
wash his hands while we were at a local diner.
He dunked his hands in a cup of water a couple times and said “there, I
washed my hands.” My father then laughed
about as if it was funny that he was so disgusting. I wanted to punch my father in face so bad
that day. I could not take it
anymore. He had not taken a shower in
months. I am surprised my father made it
as long as he did. If that were me, I
would have died a long time ago. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>The day before my father went to the hospital, I told him
that it was his choice whether or not he wanted to live or die. He went to his primary doctor the next day,
and the doctor told him to go to the hospital.
I got out of work around 5:30 P.M.
I waited for an hour for my father to pick me up. I eventually decided to take a taxi
home. When I got to the house, I did not
see the HHR in the driveway. I did not
know what had happened. I waited around
for a few hours until it got dark. I
called my supervisor on the phone, and he told me to call the police. The police came and took down all the
information for my father. They even
went to the local diner to look for him.
The police did not get anywhere and decided to call around to local
hospitals. My father was found at
Northwest Hospital in Randallstown. It
turned out that he told the head nurse not to tell anyone where he was
located. This kind of thinking made no
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After my father passed away, I found out that he canceled
his death benefits with Verizon. In
other words, there was no money to pay off the loans that my father borrowed
against the house after the original mortgage was all squared away. Who would actually do that though? Why couldn’t my father just tell me that he
did not have the money to send me to college?
I could have studied philosophy on my own if I was still interested in
the subject matter. I knew that there
were loans against the house, but I did not realize that the benefits policy
was canceled. My father and I got into a
fight one time, and he threatened to cancel out the policy, but I never thought
anyone would be dumb enough to actually do it.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It has been almost ten months since my father went to the
hospital. I will never understand why my father could not trust me enough to
tell me the truth. Then again, it is not
as if I made a serious effort to know certain things when he was alive. I was too absorbed the hive mindset from my
job to even think about my own personal needs let alone someone else’s. I work on letting the past go every day. Some days are more difficult than
others. I will eventually forgive my
father completely. I will also never
forget the lessons I learned from the relationship that I had with him. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-30235357451433818872017-04-21T02:17:00.002-07:002017-06-02T13:01:08.088-07:00Changing One's Perception Through Dream Analysis<div class="MsoNormal">
Dreams can be quite a mystery when it comes to interpreting
them. Each person dreams every night during
sleep. Most view dreams as nothing more
than a fantasy world that one goes to at night.
This philosophy could not be further from the truth. Understanding one’s dreams can give a person
more insight into him or herself than he or she ever imagined. The representations within the dream world might
give information about where one should go in life. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The first step to understanding one’s dreams is to keep a
dream diary. The dreamer needs to write
in the diary every day right after he or she wakes up in the morning. The more time one wastes before writing the
dream down, the less he or she will remember about what events took place while
asleep. Dream image retention will
increase the more dreams are written down.
Dreams will become more vivid the more one pays attention to them. The dreamer might feel as if he or she is
traveling through time. There will be a
feeling as if an individual has been somewhere during the night upon
waking. An individual might remember
what was said in a dream or at least remember that someone was speaking in what
seemed to be a foreign language. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The second step to remembering dreams is applying knowledge
when attempting to interpret dreams. This can be a little more difficult than it
seems. Dream books or websites can help
the dreamer in some cases, but the majority of the representations in dreams
can only be deciphered by the one having them.
In other words, an individual has to apply what they already know about
him or herself to get the most out of the dream representations. For example, I recently had a dream about
moving to the countryside with a friend.
This friend then got angry because I went to a video game store. For whatever reason, my brother and father
were at the store as well. I picked up
Mortal Kombat Trilogy on the original PlayStation. The game was in one of those double CD
cases. The front of the case had a deep
crack in it, but the spine was still intact.
I also picked up some collection that contained Resident Evil 4, 5, and
6 on it. I realize that I forgot my
money, so I asked my father to pay for everything. The interpretation of the dream is mirroring
what is happening in my waking life. I
am trying to move out of a house that I have been living in for thirty one
years. I am also trying to look for
opportunities beyond the call center job that I had for three years. Old memories and thought patterns still pop
in my head from time to time. I used to
play video games a lot when I was younger.
I was known as the expert at Mortal Kombat in my circle of friends. The games that I purchased represent old
memories or baggage that I have been hanging onto for a while. The games on the shelves represent different thoughts
and memories. The double CD case could
represent a stronger memory from my past than the Resident Evil
collection. The deep crack in the case
probably indicates the age of the memory.
The Mortal Kombat franchise has always resonated with me since I was
eight years old. I also was not
financially independent at a younger age.
My father paid for everything.
The themes of this dream as a whole are new opportunities and old
beliefs. I am trying to rid myself of
the old in order to make room for the new.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Dream interpretation in a nutshell is repetition combined
with applied knowledge. One needs to
keep writing out his or her dreams in order to become a good interpreter. The dreamer needs to understand him or herself
beyond a surface level in order to potentially understand the representations
within dreams. Once one has put forth a
good amount of effort in following the steps to interpreting dreams, then his
or her life will most likely get better as a result. The dreamer will be able to find out things
about him or herself that he or she never considered previously. This change in one’s perception will
eventually put the individual on the correct life path. <br />
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-17040764153709349332017-04-19T23:07:00.002-07:002017-06-02T12:58:11.076-07:00Karmic Debt Numbers in Numerology<div class="MsoNormal">
The karmic debt numbers in numerology is one that indicates which personality traits that one needs to balance in order to live according to his or her personal truths. Once an individual finds balance
within him or herself, then he or she can live up to his or her full
potential. <o:p></o:p></div>
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13/4<o:p></o:p></div>
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These people might have difficulty working hard to obtain
the results that they desire. It is
commonly believed that these individuals took shortcuts in a past life or were
lazy in some shape or form. The reason
these people might considered “lazy” is due to the fact that they might have a
desire to try something new on a constant basis. Those with this number might get bored easily
with a project and move on to something else without letting the previous
endeavor flourish. For example, one
might join a country music band only to join a rock band a few months
later. These individuals learn to stick
with something for a while and see where it leads. Those with this debt might benefit from
realizing that not every day is going to yield results that seem
substantial. Looking at how much he or
she has matured on the inside might help one stick with a project. Not everything in life is about external rewards. Try one project for one year without any
expectations, and see if any surprises occur.
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Those with this number could have a difficulty with
balancing work and freedom. It is
commonly believed the individuals took advantage of their freedom in a negative
way. These people could also be
workaholics. They do not care about
pleasures in the world. They will work
themselves to death from a literal standpoint.
People with this karmic debt might be in a job that requires them to be
of service to others in some way. The
service that is performed could be a negative expression of this debt. For example, someone might have a ten to
fifteen hour shift working in a call center arguing about bills with
customers. Yes, this individual is being
of service to others by “helping” them with their bills, but is this actually the
best use of his or her abilities? Most
people that call up customer service wish to voice their complaints and
opinions about company policies. Most do
not wish to be educated in any way. This
karmic debt is about working hard in positive way while still finding time for
pleasure and fun as well. A tip to
overcome the dilemma between work and freedom is to do a little bit of work
while expressing one’s freedom. While
going out to eat for dinner, an individual can carry a pen and pieces of paper
with him her. He or she can then proceed
to write down ideas about his or her project.
People can also listen to music in that background while they are
working on completing a task. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Those with this number might have a big ego, or they might
not recognize the talents that remain hidden underneath the surface. It is commonly believed that people with this
number might have been part of a royal family in a past life. People with this karmic debt might have a
superiority complex because they know it all.
They need to realize that not everyone knows as much about a given topic
as they do. Others do not think that
they have the knowledge to speak on a given subject matter. These people need to stop being
perfectionists. No one can understand
absolutely everything about a single topic.
Issues with the ego could lead to problems with abundance from material
and mental perspectives. A good way to
maintain balance with ego is show compassion to the stories of strangers. Try to meet them where they are in their life
and remember a time that every goes through similar situations. <o:p></o:p></div>
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These individuals could have difficulty with confidence to a
severe degree. They need to learn to
stand up for what their beliefs. There
could have abuse of power in a past life of some kind. A lot of the issues that these individuals
face are in their minds. For example,
someone might suffer from a condition known as Body Dysmorphia. People with this condition have difficulty
having any type of relationships with other people because of how they
look. These people might have a hard
time developing their creative talents.
They also refused to take advice from other a lot of the time. This seems particularly strange. These individuals are not confident enough in
themselves to pursue their own goal but they are too “overconfident” not to
take advice or ask for help from others.
In order to maneuver through this number, try going out in public
without combing your hair or putting on makeup.
You will be surprised about how little other people care. Try taking advice from others. Do not hang on to every word that someone
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-77116176995693148902017-04-15T05:11:00.001-07:002017-06-02T12:55:52.575-07:00The Inspiration for Living an Authentic Life<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="color: #1d2129;">A person can feel intuitive
about particular events that are coming up in his or her lives. The outing itself might seem small and
insignificant at first, but then the message becomes quite clear further down
the road. One might leave with something
different than what he or she came for to begin with. <span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><br />
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I was out at an expo for disabilities last Saturday. I heard that the expo was
going to have free wheelchair repair, so I naturally assumed that it would have
walker repair as well. I took my rollator walker because it functions a little
bit better than the other one I use on a regular basis. My mother in law drove
me to the expo and dropped me off. I arrived
at the location <span class="textexposedshow">two hours early and waited for the
event to begin. The technician in charge of the repairs came over to me and
asked if I needed any work done on my rollator. I did not seek the individual
out whatsoever. His station was all the away on the other side of the room.</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><br />
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<span class="textexposedshow">I decided to listen to the band that was playing in
the arts area of the expo. I had to use the bathroom. When I was done washing
my hands and reached for the handle of the door to the exit, I suddenly pulled
back and went to the side. Just as reached the wall someone else came inside
the bathroom. There is no way I could have heard her coming because of the loud
music. I would have gotten hit by the
door if I had not moved out of the way. </span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><br />
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<span class="textexposedshow">I went over to the independent living booth later
that day and asked about housing. I was turned away because the booth did not
have anything of value. I got a few pamphlets with a list of organizations, but
I already spoke to most of them in the past.
They all turned me away because I made too much money. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span class="textexposedshow"><span style="color: #1d2129;">I
decided to walk the rest of the expo floor to see what else was there. There was a booth there that had a picture of
angels. It was probably a church of some
kind. I then saw an angel on the back of
some person’s shirt. I did not see any
writing to go along with the picture. I
took this as a sign that I was supposed to be at the expo after all. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span class="textexposedshow"><span style="color: #1d2129;">I
was going to leave the expo after I finished resting up from walking the floor. Something in my head told me to stick around
to see what else would pop up. Quite a few people on the autism spectrum put on
some performance later that day. There was a keyboardist that mastered a song
by ear. Someone else was able to sing quite well. There was also some kind of act
revolving around exercise. I took this as inspiration for me to start playing
an instrument again. I began playing the guitar back in October of 2015. I
stopped playing when I started getting sick a lot.</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #1d2129;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #1d2129;">I
saw the organizer in charge of the all the artistic talent at the expo. I went over and let her read my blog post
about seeing a disability as a gift instead of an obstacle. I did not have an extra copy to give her, so
she copied it with her phone. I wish I
would have had a card with my information on it to give out. The woman gave me a card with her information
on the back of it, and then I went to my seat to finish watching the show.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #1d2129;">I
might not have found what I was looking for when I came to the expo, but I left
with something even more valuable. I
left the event more inspired than ever before.
Those who were “worse” off than I was built a career based around their
talents, so why could not I do the same thing?
It will take a while, but I could definitely make a career out of my
gifts to the world. The people at the
expo did it, and they are fine. I can do
the same thing with my talents. All I
need to do is put myself out there and see what happens. I know what type of life that I want to
live. Now I have to build it piece by piece. </span></span><span style="color: #1d2129;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-67802683138834597132017-04-10T16:57:00.002-07:002017-06-02T12:52:48.210-07:00A Helping Hand During Difficult Times<div class="MsoNormal">
Life can sometimes throw people a curve ball that they do
not see coming. When this change occurs,
everyone scrambles to put the pieces of their lives back together the way that they
were before the change occurred. The
only problem with this is no one is supposed to go backwards in time. Big changes happen in life that the
individual can live more authentically than he or she has in the past. Everyone is going to need advice on what to
do during the transition from the old lifestyle to the new one. Most people do not realize that they can
receive guidance through numbers. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The numbers 111, 222, and 333, are the most common numbers
that people start seeing once they come to realization that there something
beyond the physical realm exists. There
is usually a positive meaning associated with each of the numbers. The number 111 can mean that one is synced up
with the universe, or the individual is having are good ones. He or she should explore those ideas further. The number 222 can mean that one is living a
balanced life. This person is most likely
cooperating well with others. It can
also indicate that an individual has a lot of faith in what in current events
that are taking place. The number 333 is
associated higher spirits that might be surrounding the individual. They could be sending love, encouragement, or
new ideas. Some claim that these higher
spirits are angels. <o:p></o:p></div>
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These numbers can also have a slightly different meaning
than what has been stated above. If an
individual is falling away from the path that he or she is supposed to follow,
these numbers can be seen as a warning to get back on track. The number 111 can be a wakeup call to pay
attention what is happening in one’s life.
The number 222 could indicate that one needs to have faith in the
opportunities that are presenting themselves.
It could also mean that one needs to have more faith in him or
herself. The number 333 might be telling
an individual try to balance the physical, mental, and spiritual areas of his
or her life more effectively. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Signs can come in any form.
They not have to be numerical at all.
A good way to see signs of what to do next is through every day
conversations with other people. One might
disagree with the opinions of others, but pay attention to the topics that are
discussed more than what positions the individuals hold. These discussions will give a person an idea of
where he or she should focus his or her attention to next. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Everyone always has a helping hand available even when no
one else is around to be of assistance from a physical standpoint. All is that is required is for one to pay
attention to his or her surroundings. If
one can look for meanings beyond his or her personal intentions, then bog transitions
in life will not feel so terrible. If an
individual can stop forcing his or her agenda, then the right answer on how to
proceed will eventually make itself known.
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-27728955842586163102017-04-06T21:25:00.000-07:002017-06-02T12:50:49.252-07:00Using your Talents to Shape the Life you Deserve<div class="MsoNormal">
Changes in life sometimes come at a blink of an eye. An individual is sitting at a dead end job
thinking that life will not get any better one day only to wake up and figure
out what he or she is supposed to be doing with him or herself the next. One could become spiritual for what seems
like no reason at all. This happened to
me, and I could not be happier with the changes that are occurring. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I first got into helping others because I saw a lack of
understanding through everyday conversations that I would have with
others. I noticed that the average Joe
tends to mix up Cerebral Palsy and Multiple Sclerosis. One is a disease while the other is a birth
defect. A disease impacts the body over
time while the other impacts the body one time during birth. In other words, a birth defect will cause a
person’s body to degenerate over the course of his or her life. There are different degrees as to how a birth
defect affects the individual, but it will not worsen over time. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I have had a disability for thirty one years. I know all the ins and outs of Cerebral
Palsy. The major conclusion that I came
to during a crossroads in my life is that a disability is actually a gift in
disguise. When one follows his or her
passion, then the obstacles he or she faces begin to disappear. In other words, once an individual engages in
what he or she is meant to do, then negative situations become the exception
instead of the rule. Each person living
on this planet is a teacher of some sort.
Everyone is an expert in something whether they believe it or not. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The only reason why a disability is seen as just that is
because of the way society is structured at the moment. The majority of society sees those with
disabilities as people who are disadvantaged who need to be brought up to speed
with “everyone else.” This is not the
case at all. Once the disabled as well
as the rest of society takes their power back, then no one will need to be
brought up to speed. The disability that
one has will then be transformed into a gift that can be used to help him or
herself as well as others. Once the gift
is used for its proper purpose then all of the challenges surrounding it will vanish. No one will need to receive assistance from
the government. Everyone will be in
charge of themselves and live with everything they need in order to survive on
a daily basis. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The main issue that hold people back from achieving their
dreams and a stable living environment is fear.
When an individual focuses on fear more than his or her creative
pursuits, then that is when negative things start happening on a regular
basis. When people think of someone who
works as an artist, they always put the word “starving” in front of the noun. The fact of the matter is that the opposite
is true. When one focuses on what he or
she was meant to do, material goods and financial stability start to appear out
of the woodwork. The consensus believes
that a salary position in a company with a 401k is the best thing since sliced
bread. In actuality, what a salary
position does is lock a person into receiving a minimal amount of pay for an
amount of work that is most likely worth four or five times as much. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I chose writing as way to share my knowledge with
others. I have always been one to go into
detail about absolutely everything. I
would always tell everyone to explain the whole thing whenever they would bring
a topic up. Instead of just posting comments online, I
figured that I would actually try to use my gift to help express myself more effectively
as well as inspire other people. This is
what my purpose is in this lifetime. I
am supposed to take the knowledge I have gained, and use it to assist others in
bringing out their best qualities. As
long as I follow this path, then I will always have what I need in order to
live a happy life.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Everyone is born with a gift that they must share with the
rest of the world. This gift will tie
into the life purpose of each individual on the planet. Once people start following their own path,
their gifts will become more accessible than ever before. Everyone will then live in abundance and the
lack of what is required to function on a daily basis will not be an issue any
longer. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-7350866586943751032017-04-05T08:49:00.001-07:002017-06-02T12:47:01.843-07:00Building a Healthier Future<div class="MsoNormal">
The world today is extremely fast paced due to all the
activities one schedules on a daily basis.
Because we live in a quantity over quality world, people tend to not
take care of their health the way that they should. This will eventually lead to the malfunction
of the body. Once the body starts to
fail, then people will not be able live life to the fullest.<o:p></o:p></div>
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My health seems to get worse during the winter months. My legs become stiffer, and I cannot walk
very well. Sometimes my lower back will
hurt so bad that I will just stay in the bed the majority of the day. I finally decided to do something about these
negative conditions a few weeks ago. I
asked my primary doctor to give me a referral so I could go to physical therapy. I figured that if I strengthened the muscles
in the legs and lower back, then I might fare cold weather better in the
future.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It felt odd to be in physical therapy once again. The last time I was in any type of therapy
relating to the physical body was after my last surgery in the summer of
2000. I felt like I was putting on an
old hat that I had not worn in years. I
was not sure how this was going to turn out.<o:p></o:p></div>
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The physician that I saw gave me standard exercises for my
legs. I had to move one leg at a time
out to the side while on my back. I had
other exercises such as raising my legs in the air as well as toward my chest. I also had a band tied around my legs and
then had to move my legs in opposing directions to fight the resistance put on
my lower extremities.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I started to feel the difference in my body after two
therapy sessions. My right hip did not
crack as much. My lower back seemed to
be able to withstand some of the colder nights during early spring. I also began to feel my own aura in my feet
on a relatively regular basis. The
symptoms I experience due to having an inflamed pelvic floor did not seem as painful. I started going to the bathroom more easily
than I have in years.<o:p></o:p></div>
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If I would not have made time to go to physical therapy,
then my health never would have improved at all. Slowing one’s self down is a key component to
improving one’s body and mind. Nobody will ever accomplish anything in life
by doing the bare minimum so that he or she can move on to the next thing. Good health takes commitment and
patience. Without those two things,
there will be no chance that an individual will improve his or her life. <br />
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Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-65255280098931026222017-03-29T15:50:00.001-07:002017-06-02T12:43:46.067-07:00Learning how to show Compassion<div class="MsoNormal">
The world can sometimes be a very scary place to be. A good part of the population is still stuck
in survival mode, and this can lead to circumstances that would be very
unpleasant to deal with. On the other
side of the coin, compassion is something that a lot of people seem to have
forgotten about. I also forgot about
compassion as well during last night’s conference regarding getting a name or
gender marker altered. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The conference started inside a small room within the Chase
Brexton healthcare facility in Baltimore City.
A person by the name of Monica stated that she does not trust any
medical institution. She thought that
the medical was talking about her when she was unconscious from anesthesia. Another individual who identified as a trans
man told his story about working a job in the medical field. He made sure that the doctors gendered people
correctly. A non-trans female lawyer
also explained that she was at the conference in order to obtain information to
serve her clients more efficiently. Monica
decided to start arguments with both lawyer, and the trans man. She asked them both what they are doing
here. The lawyer explained once more that
she was there to gather information to help her clients. Monica did not like this answer. She felt as though she was being observed and
did not feel that was equal to the lawyer.
Monica also had an issue with the story the trans man gave regarding his
experience in the working world. In
other words, the only thing Monica would have accepted for a legitimate answer
would have been someone saying that he or she was at the conference to help
takes steps to get his or her name or gender changed. Back stories did not matter to this
woman. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I began to lose my cool on the inside as Monica berated these
two individuals over and over about why there were at the conference in the
first place. I wished the host of the
conference would have stood up and told Monica to stop, but she just sat there
instead. I could have voiced my opinion,
but I did not want to add insult to injury.
The host probably thought the same thing. <o:p></o:p></div>
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After the arguments were over, the conversation then turned
to gender identification on medical forms that one receives in the waiting room
of an office. People were complaining
about forms stating “female” and “trans female” instead of “cis female” and “trans
female. Certain people felt that this
was an injustice to the transgender population.
One person thought that the different boxes on the forms forced people
to indicate how they perceive their bodies.
It just amazed me that no one brought up the fact that transition is
more of an internal movement than an external one. No one talked about what they learned from
transition so far. It was always about
others people’s perception of who they were.
Transition is about the journey to express one’s inner nature. I felt like I did not belong at this
conference.<o:p></o:p></div>
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After the conference was over, I went to the diner in my
neighborhood to try to raise my spirit. This
helped a little bit, but it took about five more hours before I was able to get
the whole incident out of my head. I did
not sleep at all during the night.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I thought the whole conference was about helping others with
changing one’s name or gender marker. I
came to the meeting to tell my story about changing both of these things. I hoped to inspire others with my words, but
this did not happen. I was the one who
was taught something in the end. I did
not see the conference this way immediately after it was over. The universe was teaching me how to have
compassion for others who were less fortunate than I was. If someone told me three years ago that
transition was a journey from the inside out, I probably would not have paid
attention to a word that this person was saying. I too was stuck on physical and vocal changes
for a long time, and I would not have been able to see the bigger picture. I have to remember that I was once where some
the people at the conference are now. I
wish I would have had this in mind before I went to the conference. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The reason that I had no knowledge of being taught a lesson
was because I absorbed the negative energy that Monica was sending out. I let her rampage on two other people affect
my mood. This in turn lowered my
vibration. I began to think solely of my
needs just as she was doing. This is why
I was not able to see what was really going on in the conference. Monica controlled everything, and no one did
anything to stop it. This includes me as
well. If I would have stood up to her
and changed the topic, then I might have been able to raise the vibration of
the rest of the room. I was somewhat of
being physically assaulted, so I did not say anything. I had an opportunity to change things for the
better, but I decided to give into fear instead. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Now that I realize that I actually do absorb the energy of
others, I can then take more constructive measures to protect myself in the
future. I now know how to handle myself
in an environment where low vibrations are dominant. I also understand that I need to show more
compassion to those who cannot see the good in the world. I need to remember that I was not always as
optimistic about my life when I was younger.
I was able to pick up on Monica’s vibration right after she opened her
mouth. I should have showed compassion
towards her from the start. I guess the
night was not a complete waste. I might
have failed to inspire others, but I learned something about myself in the
process. <o:p></o:p></div>
Lauren Rileyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04040236807380532617noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7466229865027087403.post-4714219936725704442017-03-27T13:41:00.002-07:002017-06-02T12:40:39.496-07:00Becoming a Victim to your own Emotions<div class="MsoNormal">
Emotions can sometimes make people do crazy things. This is especially true when one is a seemingly
bad situation. I became a victim to my
negative emotions this passed Friday, and the results were not good at all. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I have been trying to find a new place to live for about
nine months. The property I live in now
is up for short sale and could face foreclosure at the end of April of this
year. I have a condition known as
Cerebral Palsy, so it is hard for me to find a place that is in a fair price
range and will suit my needs. I cannot
do steps that well, and this would make doing a simple task such as washing
clothes almost impossible without a washer and dryer close by. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I finally found a place in the same town where I live
currently. The apartment was all on one
level and included a washer and dryer all for the price of $1169. That amount would have been difficult for me
to afford, but it was the only game in town.
I knew I had to be out my current place as soon as possible. I decided to go up to the complex and see if
there were any addition details regarding the apartment. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I tried calling for an Uber, and the first person that was
supposed to pick me up cancelled the ride.
I should have taken this as a sign that none of what I was about to do
would lead to a good ending, but I was too “determined” to listen to the signs that
surrounded me. I called another Uber driver
and went down to the apartment complex.
When I arrived, I walked up and down the parking lot trying to find a
ramp to get up on the sidewalk. This was
the second sign that the apartment was not the right place for me. ”Coincidentally,” someone from the leasing
office came out of the building and helped me up the sidewalk as well as the steps
to the front door. The personnel inside ran the necessary processes to get me
approved for the apartment. They wanted
my social security card due to an issue that was present in their system. One of the ladies at the office offered to
drive me home so that I would save on the cost of calling for an Uber ride. I gave her my social security card, and she
told me that she would back in just a little while after
everything had been completed. I should
not have loaned my card to someone I barely knew, but there were not a whole lot
of options available, so I decided to take a risk. I knew I had to get out of my old place
before the bank forces me to leave. I
got a call an hour later from the complex asking if I had any other identification
outside of my state ID. I told the
person who called that I changed my name almost two years ago. She wanted me to bring up my name change
papers. I waited two more hours for the
woman that drove me home to bring back my card.
She never did come back to my place to explain what was happening. I decided to cancel everything out then and
there. I called the leasing office back
to tell them not to give me the place due to all the issues it was having with
my info. There was obviously something
wrong somewhere along the line. The
person I spoke to on the phone said that the office put my social security card
in the mail. I got mad because no one
called me to explain the change in plan.
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I took another Uber ride up to the apartment complex. The Uber driver ended up heading down the
wrong road, and I spent more money for that particular ride. I went up to the office before the mail was taken out. I got my
card back and called for another Uber ride.
The rate for this ride was 1.2 times the normal rate due to a shortage of drivers during hectic business hours. I was only going down the
street to my favorite restaurant. It was only
about a mile down the street, and I ended up paying $7.20 for that ride. I had to get out of the complex parking lot
because the rental office was closing in an hour. I did not have a choice in the matter. I did not have the opportunity to wait for
until the regular rate was available again.
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If I would have just sat home that day, then all of the
issues I faced could have been avoided.
I would not have learned about the red flag on my name, so I guess I
learned something from the experience after all. I wasted a lot time, energy and money when
everything would have remained fine if I would have paid attention to the first
two signs that told me to avoid the complex altogether. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I went out to the diner again last night, and I saw a sign
for a disability expo regarding independent living in an area that is close to
me. The sign was posted at the end of
the road just before going on entrance ramp to the highway. I then saw a commercial for the expo on
Youtube before watching a video later on that night. This could be a sign that I might find what I
am looking for at this expo. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I learned a valuable lesson this passed Friday. I cannot let my feelings about a current
situation control the actions that I take.
If something is not right, then it is not right regardless of what other
external circumstances are happening around me.
I tried my best, and that is what counts. If
the worst ends up happening, then I will just have to deal with it when the
time comes. I tried my best to do things
in a practical manner, and I failed. I
can only take things one day at a time.
I need to let situations come to end naturally instead of using
force. There is obviously something
bigger taking place outside of this whole ordeal with housing. All I can do is make better choices in the
future. <br />
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