(My father and I had a difficult relationship. This letter might seem a bit harsh, but I had to let go of some difficult emotions. I appreciate everyone that has supported me in my journey to become a light worker. Have an awesome year)
Dear Father:
I hope your soul is doing well after the painful death that
you endured. I wish the best of luck in
your next incarnation. I would try to
work on developing values outside materialism and career. Everyone lives a physical existence on this
planet, and we all need physical things in order to sustain ourselves. You took that idea a bit too far during your
last life here on earth. Your identity
was tied to working and making money.
You never really took time to take care of your health. You also never took too much of an interest
in what other people were doing around you.
When no one else would take interest in the things you were doing, then
you got an attitude with him or her.
Things were quite turbulent after you passed away in July. I am going to lose the house. I do not know where I will be living as of
yet, but I am sure that I will manage something. I put a few of the bills in my name. I have been paying BGE, Verizon Wireless, and
Verizon Fios for about five months now.
My credit information is still rather lackluster. This is one of the main reasons that I cannot
rent an apartment or room somewhere. I
should not feel too bad though because I do not have any outstanding debts in
my name. One Main Financial and your
Elan credit card are paid off in full. I
do not understand why you ran up a three thousand dollar bill on the card. Why did you have such a huge ego? You should have asked for help with all of
your issues. The only reason why you
probably tried to control everything at home all the time was because you felt
like you had no power when it came to your career.
I have moved on with my life. I have realized that I have the potential to
become an occultist, a writer, and a healer.
You probably disapprove of the choices that I have made with my
life. The only thing that you fail to
realize is that some people value things other than money. I let your influence take over my own
personality. The same can be said for
BGE as well. Both of you are similar to
one another. You both valued financial
gain above all else. You both had
terrible taste in nutrition. I still do
not know how I ate pizza from Pizza Hut.
I guess I should not be too hard on myself because I did not know any
better at the time. My life feels
awesome without either of you in it whatsoever.
This letter is not about trashing the way you lived. When you actually responded to things like an
ordinary person, then things did not seem half bad. You were always an awesome person when we
went out to eat to places such as The Reisterstown Family Diner, J and P Pizza,
and Ledo Pizza. We had a lot of laughs
when we went out. It is too bad that the
joy had to stop once we came home.
My only other point of contention is that you always
defended your negative attributes by using me as an excuse. You always said that I should be thankful
that you are around due to my inability to drive. You cannot use being a “chauffeur” as a
reason that I should have overlooked your shortcomings. I was thankful that you took the time to help
me to get the work as well as take me to doctor appointments. You still had faults of your own that you
could have worked on to better yourself.
I was never mad because you were not a perfect person. I was angry because you never tried to
improve yourself one bit. Some of your flaws were so big that they could not be
ignored. I can only guess that you
suffered from some kind of mental illness.
I wrote this letter in order to let go of all the anger that
I have had for you over the years. You
are now one with the universe once again.
I am sorry that we did not have a better relationship while you were
still around. I forgive you for all the
pain you have caused. It probably was
not all you fault. Please consider this
letter as a symbol of peace
Love
Laruen
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